Tomorrow is a new leaf.
I have always longed for
and LOVED this leaf I am on
today
I wish in my deepest heart
to still be on this little leaf
tomorrow.
The leaf of being with Holland
every moment that is ours.
The leaf that lets us sleep and snuggle
for as long as we want, or can.
The leaf where we can eat ice cream
whenever we want,
even if we have just finished a helping.
The leaf we play dress up, or pet store,
or mermaid.
The one where we watch two hours of
Tom and Jerry
and spoon
and laugh.
Where we could go to the park or the bike path
or the movies or the mall or to lunch or on an adventure.
They are all ours.
But my favorites, the ones I will miss the most
(not that they will stop, but the quantity shortens
all because of this new leaf)
are the times we lay all over each other
and talk
talk about how a lemon grows
or what does my belly do?
or how is wood made?
or play tickle monster, or fairy, or bugs.
and we say,
we really should get to sleep, it is getting late
but instead
we keep talking and keep tickling
the times I am there to see every little expression
or discovery and to answer all the questions
as best I can.
the times when we really aren't doing
anything
but breathing together.
Holland,
you are brave
you are very very brave
and you are beautiful
as we always say
inside and out!
I love you so very very much.
This morning we were coloring and the big little girl said
Mom, are you ready to go work tomorrow? Are you excited?
I said, well, yes, I guess, but not excited because I will miss being with you
She said, me too mom
Are you excited to go to your new school?
yes, but not ready to not be with you.
And then she said,
Can you stay here and snuggle me a little while?
Forever.
